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Post by watchmanjim on Oct 21, 2017 8:20:32 GMT -6
Thanks everybody. Keeping HIM in focus is the key, of course. I'm headed out with my little Gospel Marines right now to spread the Gospel to all the creatures we can find in the next couple hours. Keep us in prayer, please. Pray for souls to be saved.  |
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Post by barb84 on Oct 21, 2017 8:30:41 GMT -6
Praying for your safety and for hearts to be opened and responsive.
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Post by tiffanybw on Oct 22, 2017 5:37:11 GMT -6
I am another weary one. Thank you for your prayers, Rick. I have a hard time continuing in everything. Full time work, dad of 7, husband, home-owner, church member, and visionary. Supporting my family on security officer's wages is almost impossible. My health makes me unqualified for most jobs, and many of the ones I could physically handle, I don't have the background, education, or experience for. If our Lord doesn't come back pretty soon, I need a new job, and a health transplant. Praying about both and looking into possibilities. My family and I would appreciate everybody's prayers who can take a moment to pray for us. Tiffany and Sawdy, praying for you just now. I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you and your family. Wow... 7! That must keep both you and your wife beyond busy!  |
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Post by tiffanybw on Oct 22, 2017 5:56:57 GMT -6
I have been not only dragging... but feeling completely immobilized. Paralyzed. I've been wanting to contribute to certain threads, even start a new one on something new I *might* have discovered in some prophetic passages. I haven't been able to put my thoughts together. Everything has been scattered, and I've been in a fog. At first I thought it was just from being weary from watching and perhaps disappointment that Jesus didn't come yet, but it steadily got worse and worse. I got physically ill also, last weekend. Then I realized, I'm under spiritual oppression. I can't explain why sometimes takes me a while to realize what it is when this happens (this ain't my first rodeo!) but that's part of the warfare MO—to confuse, hinder and alienate. I'm great at recognizing spiritual warfare in others' lives, but when it hits my life like a Mack truck, it's like I'm blindsided and too dense to realize what is happening. I haven't told anyone but tiffanybw this, but I believe I had a miscarriage about two months ago or so. It's taken that amount of time to really work it out (I really thought I was still pregnant up until last week.) This would be my 4th or 5th miscarriage, so it's not an unfamiliar roller coaster. It doesn't devastate me like it used to, especially since I finally did have a precious little miracle almost three years ago. She's my consolation. That and knowing I'm just helping to populate the Kingdom of God. But I'm also not unfamiliar with the enemy taking advantage of a vulnerable situation and pulling me under. I've tried on at least 3 different occasions to post a thread and ask for prayer but deleted the message each time. This time I hope I press "post," lol. God did help me come out from some of it two days ago, when He reminded me that He is All-powerful and through Him, I've been given authority to "tread on snakes ans scorpions." It's like I had forgotten I wasn't helpless (part of the spiritual warfare MO too). I did some battle and some of the fog lifted, but I get weary of the battle. It feels constant sometimes and I give in to the deception that I'm powerless and weak. So, it's this constant uphill and downhill battle that I feel like I'm waging all alone, that sometimes I let it take over. I obviously didn't get to the bottom of the warfare the other day—what exactly I'm fighting—like what form of deception am I currently believing that is allowing this right now? Because I was still struggling, just not as badly, until today. Part of the MO, also, is to cause apathy and self-pity, like I feel sorry for myself that I'm feeling terrible but I can't bring myself to do the work (repent, pray, read) necessary to find complete freedom. There must be some pride there. (See, I can diagnose myself, but I won't take the medicine...) Today, its feeling very heavy again. I hope this post makes sense. As I feel very scattered and not thinking straight, I can't guarantee I am making coherent statements (one of the reasons I kept deleting the previous posts—I don't want to sound like a nutcase). But I think it's time I finally post this and ask for some help. In my mind's eye, I see myself bloody, laying on the battle ground, barely conscious, with no strength to stand up on my own. Help. Valerie You are completely coherent and don't sound at all like a nutcase. I am so, so sorry Sister.  No one, unless one who has been through it themselves, could ever understand that pain you must be going through right now. Add to all of that, this present world. There is always something, always so much happening and so many times seems that it is more bad than good. I haven't been online the past few days and so I'm so sorry I did not see this until just now. What I'm going to do, I'm going to pray some, and then I'll pm you. In the meantime, keep your chin up. You are an amazing and incredible Soldier! God's Soldier, His Warrior, His Daughter, His Child! He has used you to do great things and I know that personally because you have helped me and my family personally. I'm so thankful, not only for this forum; but to have met you Valerie here on this forum. While I'm praying (then have to to later to in law's today and then will come back and pm you); but while I'm doing all that go to Jesus and just lay at His Feet. Visualize Him in all His Love and His Glory, His Garments White as Snow. And then He reaches down to where you lay on this battle ground, and He gently wipes away the tears that glisten upon your cheeks. Then He lifts you up, and He cradles you in His Arms; just like you do with your 3 year old little girl. Except, even more perfect than that because He is Perfect! And then He just holds you. Safe and Secure in His Arms and for as long as you need Him to. And know, that even when He does go to put you down... just... that He is still with you, walking right beside of you Valerie. And as soon as you need Him just tug on His Sleeve and He'll pick you up again. You are so special to Him, so special to the Body of Christ. There is no one like you and there is no one else who can do what you do for His Body. And everything that I told you to visualize, the best part about it, it's not pretend. This is Reality. He Is. He is Real and He is True and He really will comfort you and hold you if you just let Him. I think that sometimes, those of us who are good at helping other's... just that sometimes we end up neglecting ourselves. And every once in awhile, it's ok for us to go to Him, to be what we think of as "selfish", and to let Him comfort us. God Bless you Sister and I'll pm you later, depending upon when I get home, or if not, then tomorrow morning. *HUGS* |
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Post by hopeful on Oct 22, 2017 11:36:32 GMT -6
I've been thinking about you fellow watchers, especially the ones who are going through really hard times. This has been a heavy time, and this morning when I took the dogs up the hill for their Frisbee games I missed that feeling of resting in God. We got to the top of the hill and I gave them a couple of good tosses. Then I looked straight ahead and there was a beautiful rainbow. It was only there for a moment, just long enough for me to see it, and to remember that God knows our struggles, and He hasn't forgotten us, and it's all worth it. Luke 12:37 came to mind: "Blessed are those servants whom the master, when he comes, will find watching." I pray that God will encourage your hearts today. Edited to add something funny. I created this post, but felt like I could have said more, or said it better, so I called my dad ( gkp) to see if he had suggestions. He was busy with his hands so my mom put it on speakerphone for him. Well, anytime I share something I care about it makes me cry. Every Single Time. So there I am, trying not to cry as I read my post, and when I finished my dad said, "your mom set that phone in a pan of brownies. !! It made me laugh, crying into a pan of brownies and I'm not even sad! Afterwards I figured I'd better vacuum, but it wasn't working, so I hauled it back upstairs with a sense of going back to the humdrum world. (Crying in the brownies brought me back first : ) Right at my feet when I got upstairs was the biggest, brightest rainbow I'd ever seen up here. I had to stop and marvel at its colors. And too, I marveled that we have a God who thought to create such beauty. And who also has a sense of humor |
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Post by barb84 on Oct 22, 2017 13:57:09 GMT -6
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Post by watchman35 on Oct 22, 2017 14:58:47 GMT -6
watchmanjim and MissusMack08, very sorry for your difficult, painful circumstances and praying for you both to see the grace and power of our Lord manifested in your life to bring you the very things that He knows will best meet your needs. So looking forward to no more pain, suffering, heartache, sorrows, and tears. Maranatha, Lord Jesus.
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Post by yardstick on Oct 31, 2017 12:02:51 GMT -6
Aye  The question is...are we innies or outies mike ? Given the thread topic, I'm leaving this one alone 😁 Yes, please leave this alone. It would be TMI. |
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Post by yardstick on Oct 31, 2017 12:04:21 GMT -6
There is two parts to the thread topic, talking and keeping Him in focus. Right now, we are focusing on the talking part. MikeTaft appears to soon be an "innie" with the raptured crowd as he is whipping though the post number standings and will have soon surpassed me if he keeps up at this rate. I'm stuck on the "outtie"side probably until the actual rapture. Lol Well that answers the question doesn't it. lol. Well don't worry too much sawdy . We may be raptured long before I even surpass you in post.  Whew. Dodged a bullet there. |
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The question is...are we innies or outies 
