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Post by karen on Oct 20, 2017 11:22:46 GMT -6
I am another weary one. Thank you for your prayers, Rick. I have a hard time continuing in everything. Full time work, dad of 7, husband, home-owner, church member, and visionary. Supporting my family on security officer's wages is almost impossible. My health makes me unqualified for most jobs, and many of the ones I could physically handle, I don't have the background, education, or experience for. If our Lord doesn't come back pretty soon, I need a new job, and a health transplant. Praying about both and looking into possibilities. My family and I would appreciate everybody's prayers who can take a moment to pray for us. Tiffany and Sawdy, praying for you just now. I will pray for you and your family 🙏🙏🙏 |
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Post by MissusMack08 on Oct 20, 2017 12:19:05 GMT -6
I have been not only dragging... but feeling completely immobilized. Paralyzed. I've been wanting to contribute to certain threads, even start a new one on something new I *might* have discovered in some prophetic passages. I haven't been able to put my thoughts together. Everything has been scattered, and I've been in a fog. At first I thought it was just from being weary from watching and perhaps disappointment that Jesus didn't come yet, but it steadily got worse and worse. I got physically ill also, last weekend. Then I realized, I'm under spiritual oppression. I can't explain why sometimes takes me a while to realize what it is when this happens (this ain't my first rodeo!) but that's part of the warfare MO—to confuse, hinder and alienate. I'm great at recognizing spiritual warfare in others' lives, but when it hits my life like a Mack truck, it's like I'm blindsided and too dense to realize what is happening. I haven't told anyone but tiffanybw this, but I believe I had a miscarriage about two months ago or so. It's taken that amount of time to really work it out (I really thought I was still pregnant up until last week.) This would be my 4th or 5th miscarriage, so it's not an unfamiliar roller coaster. It doesn't devastate me like it used to, especially since I finally did have a precious little miracle almost three years ago. She's my consolation. That and knowing I'm just helping to populate the Kingdom of God. But I'm also not unfamiliar with the enemy taking advantage of a vulnerable situation and pulling me under. I've tried on at least 3 different occasions to post a thread and ask for prayer but deleted the message each time. This time I hope I press "post," lol. God did help me come out from some of it two days ago, when He reminded me that He is All-powerful and through Him, I've been given authority to "tread on snakes ans scorpions." It's like I had forgotten I wasn't helpless (part of the spiritual warfare MO too). I did some battle and some of the fog lifted, but I get weary of the battle. It feels constant sometimes and I give in to the deception that I'm powerless and weak. So, it's this constant uphill and downhill battle that I feel like I'm waging all alone, that sometimes I let it take over. I obviously didn't get to the bottom of the warfare the other day—what exactly I'm fighting—like what form of deception am I currently believing that is allowing this right now? Because I was still struggling, just not as badly, until today. Part of the MO, also, is to cause apathy and self-pity, like I feel sorry for myself that I'm feeling terrible but I can't bring myself to do the work (repent, pray, read) necessary to find complete freedom. There must be some pride there. (See, I can diagnose myself, but I won't take the medicine...) Today, its feeling very heavy again. I hope this post makes sense. As I feel very scattered and not thinking straight, I can't guarantee I am making coherent statements (one of the reasons I kept deleting the previous posts—I don't want to sound like a nutcase). But I think it's time I finally post this and ask for some help. In my mind's eye, I see myself bloody, laying on the battle ground, barely conscious, with no strength to stand up on my own. Help. Valerie |
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Post by Deleted on Oct 20, 2017 12:24:03 GMT -6
I am another weary one. Thank you for your prayers, Rick. I have a hard time continuing in everything. Full time work, dad of 7, husband, home-owner, church member, and visionary. Supporting my family on security officer's wages is almost impossible. My health makes me unqualified for most jobs, and many of the ones I could physically handle, I don't have the background, education, or experience for. If our Lord doesn't come back pretty soon, I need a new job, and a health transplant. Praying about both and looking into possibilities. My family and I would appreciate everybody's prayers who can take a moment to pray for us. Tiffany and Sawdy, praying for you just now. I will pray for you and your family 🙏🙏🙏 Lifting you up Jim. |
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Post by karen on Oct 20, 2017 12:54:54 GMT -6
I have been not only dragging... but feeling completely immobilized. Paralyzed. I've been wanting to contribute to certain threads, even start a new one on something new I *might* have discovered in some prophetic passages. I haven't been able to put my thoughts together. Everything has been scattered, and I've been in a fog. At first I thought it was just from being weary from watching and perhaps disappointment that Jesus didn't come yet, but it steadily got worse and worse. I got physically ill also, last weekend. Then I realized, I'm under spiritual oppression. I can't explain why sometimes takes me a while to realize what it is when this happens (this ain't my first rodeo!) but that's part of the warfare MO—to confuse, hinder and alienate. I'm great at recognizing spiritual warfare in others' lives, but when it hits my life like a Mack truck, it's like I'm blindsided and too dense to realize what is happening. I haven't told anyone but tiffanybw this, but I believe I had a miscarriage about two months ago or so. It's taken that amount of time to really work it out (I really thought I was still pregnant up until last week.) This would be my 4th or 5th miscarriage, so it's not an unfamiliar roller coaster. It doesn't devastate me like it used to, especially since I finally did have a precious little miracle almost three years ago. She's my consolation. That and knowing I'm just helping to populate the Kingdom of God. But I'm also not unfamiliar with the enemy taking advantage of a vulnerable situation and pulling me under. I've tried on at least 3 different occasions to post a thread and ask for prayer but deleted the message each time. This time I hope I press "post," lol. God did help me come out from some of it two days ago, when He reminded me that He is All-powerful and through Him, I've been given authority to "tread on snakes ans scorpions." It's like I had forgotten I wasn't helpless (part of the spiritual warfare MO too). I did some battle and some of the fog lifted, but I get weary of the battle. It feels constant sometimes and I give in to the deception that I'm powerless and weak. So, it's this constant uphill and downhill battle that I feel like I'm waging all alone, that sometimes I let it take over. I obviously didn't get to the bottom of the warfare the other day—what exactly I'm fighting—like what form of deception am I currently believing that is allowing this right now? Because I was still struggling, just not as badly, until today. Part of the MO, also, is to cause apathy and self-pity, like I feel sorry for myself that I'm feeling terrible but I can't bring myself to do the work (repent, pray, read) necessary to find complete freedom. There must be some pride there. (See, I can diagnose myself, but I won't take the medicine...) Today, its feeling very heavy again. I hope this post makes sense. As I feel very scattered and not thinking straight, I can't guarantee I am making coherent statements (one of the reasons I kept deleting the previous posts—I don't want to sound like a nutcase). But I think it's time I finally post this and ask for some help. In my mind's eye, I see myself bloody, laying on the battle ground, barely conscious, with no strength to stand up on my own. Help. Valerie I'm so sorry for your loss(es); I will definitely pray for you!! I don't know if this will be helpful to you, but one of the things I practice, especially when I am feeling weak, is visualizing Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane. After a heartbreaking struggle He submitted His will to His Father, not only in words, but in every step (many of them torturously painful) to the cross right up to His last breath. The most amazing part of this is that you and I are credited with that faith and submission, because not only did He take our sin, He imparted His righteousness into us!!! |
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Post by mike on Oct 20, 2017 13:23:25 GMT -6
MissusMack08 I am sorry to hear this. I have noticed the absence of your presence here on the boards. I have been mentioning many of you in my prayers, including you. Its nice to (now) know your real name though. Sometimes I feel weird praying for people by usernames 
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Post by gkp on Oct 20, 2017 13:32:25 GMT -6
I just read through all these posts and it helped me realize how much you all mean to me. I tried to read one or two of your testimonies to my wife and gave up after the first one. Can't read and cry at the same time. Thank you each for pressing on and for offering yourselves up to God as living sacrifices and to each other as well. On both counts you are safe and in good hands. I am finding out that I am older than most of you (67) and my wife and I have had years of hard times too. So as one of the older members let me assure you that God has been there for us through it all. He will keep you all too. Ours prayers go up for you.
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Post by MikeTaft on Oct 20, 2017 13:48:36 GMT -6
I'm so sorry to hear that MissusMack08 (Valerie)...We all have our round-a-bouts with the enemy, and now-a-days he's trying all the more harder. Love you sis' and know He is victorious and these battles will be replaced with unimaginable joy soon. Praying for you now. My heart goes out to you. Just lean on Him and He'll give you that perfect peace that surpasses all understanding. *Big hugs!* |
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Post by Natalie on Oct 20, 2017 14:29:13 GMT -6
I will be praying for you. I so enjoy the contributions you have made here. I pray that the fog lifts, that His peace fills you, and that will know that your brothers and sisters are fighting with you. The battle is hard, but our armor and weapons are from God and He will not fail us.
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Post by nana on Oct 20, 2017 15:02:12 GMT -6
I have been not only dragging... but feeling completely immobilized. Paralyzed. I've been wanting to contribute to certain threads, even start a new one on something new I *might* have discovered in some prophetic passages. I haven't been able to put my thoughts together. Everything has been scattered, and I've been in a fog. At first I thought it was just from being weary from watching and perhaps disappointment that Jesus didn't come yet, but it steadily got worse and worse. I got physically ill also, last weekend. Then I realized, I'm under spiritual oppression. I can't explain why sometimes takes me a while to realize what it is when this happens (this ain't my first rodeo!) but that's part of the warfare MO—to confuse, hinder and alienate. I'm great at recognizing spiritual warfare in others' lives, but when it hits my life like a Mack truck, it's like I'm blindsided and too dense to realize what is happening. I haven't told anyone but tiffanybw this, but I believe I had a miscarriage about two months ago or so. It's taken that amount of time to really work it out (I really thought I was still pregnant up until last week.) This would be my 4th or 5th miscarriage, so it's not an unfamiliar roller coaster. It doesn't devastate me like it used to, especially since I finally did have a precious little miracle almost three years ago. She's my consolation. That and knowing I'm just helping to populate the Kingdom of God. But I'm also not unfamiliar with the enemy taking advantage of a vulnerable situation and pulling me under. I've tried on at least 3 different occasions to post a thread and ask for prayer but deleted the message each time. This time I hope I press "post," lol. God did help me come out from some of it two days ago, when He reminded me that He is All-powerful and through Him, I've been given authority to "tread on snakes ans scorpions." It's like I had forgotten I wasn't helpless (part of the spiritual warfare MO too). I did some battle and some of the fog lifted, but I get weary of the battle. It feels constant sometimes and I give in to the deception that I'm powerless and weak. So, it's this constant uphill and downhill battle that I feel like I'm waging all alone, that sometimes I let it take over. I obviously didn't get to the bottom of the warfare the other day—what exactly I'm fighting—like what form of deception am I currently believing that is allowing this right now? Because I was still struggling, just not as badly, until today. Part of the MO, also, is to cause apathy and self-pity, like I feel sorry for myself that I'm feeling terrible but I can't bring myself to do the work (repent, pray, read) necessary to find complete freedom. There must be some pride there. (See, I can diagnose myself, but I won't take the medicine...) Today, its feeling very heavy again. I hope this post makes sense. As I feel very scattered and not thinking straight, I can't guarantee I am making coherent statements (one of the reasons I kept deleting the previous posts—I don't want to sound like a nutcase). But I think it's time I finally post this and ask for some help. In my mind's eye, I see myself bloody, laying on the battle ground, barely conscious, with no strength to stand up on my own. Help. Valerie I just want to hug you and let you know it will be ok. I believe your little ones are up there running around, maybe with mine and a couple grandchildren too playing. I also wonder if he or she will still be small or grown up by now? But I know everything is ok, it's all in Gods hands and you couldn't ask for better hands. |
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Post by sawdy on Oct 20, 2017 17:45:36 GMT -6
MissusMack08 I am sorry to hear this. I have noticed the absence of your presence here on the boards. I have been mentioning many of you in my prayers, including you. Its nice to (now) know your real name though. Sometimes I feel weird praying for people by usernames God knows our usernames so he knows who you're praying for. When I pray for you, because I know a lot of Mike's, I pray for the Tinfoil Hat Mike. So technically, you have a username too. Lol |
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Post by mike on Oct 20, 2017 18:06:44 GMT -6
MissusMack08 I am sorry to hear this. I have noticed the absence of your presence here on the boards. I have been mentioning many of you in my prayers, including you. Its nice to (now) know your real name though. Sometimes I feel weird praying for people by usernames God knows our usernames so he knows who you're praying for. When I pray for you, because I know a lot of Mike's, I pray for the Tinfoil Hat Mike. So technically, you have a username too. Lol Lol, yeah we're like belly buttons right MikeTaft |
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Post by MikeTaft on Oct 20, 2017 18:13:15 GMT -6
Aye  The question is...are we innies or outies mike? |
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Post by mike on Oct 20, 2017 18:17:03 GMT -6
Aye The question is...are we innies or outies mike? Given the thread topic, I'm leaving this one alone 😁 |
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Post by sawdy on Oct 20, 2017 20:11:06 GMT -6
Aye The question is...are we innies or outies mike? Given the thread topic, I'm leaving this one alone 😁 There is two parts to the thread topic, talking and keeping Him in focus. Right now, we are focusing on the talking part. MikeTaft appears to soon be an "innie" with the raptured crowd as he is whipping though the post number standings and will have soon surpassed me if he keeps up at this rate. I'm stuck on the "outtie"side probably until the actual rapture. Lol |
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Post by MikeTaft on Oct 21, 2017 5:07:47 GMT -6
Given the thread topic, I'm leaving this one alone 😁 There is two parts to the thread topic, talking and keeping Him in focus. Right now, we are focusing on the talking part. MikeTaft appears to soon be an "innie" with the raptured crowd as he is whipping though the post number standings and will have soon surpassed me if he keeps up at this rate. I'm stuck on the "outtie"side probably until the actual rapture. Lol Well that answers the question doesn't it. lol. Well don't worry too much sawdy. We may be raptured long before I even surpass you in post.  |
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The question is...are we innies or outies 