Prayer for my Family

Dear Sawdy,
I am praying for you and your family. I am so amazed and thankful at how our Lord orchestrates life around us. Eccl 3:1 There is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven.
May His Holy Spirit anoint you greatly to minister and proclaim His Truth to your family.
Susan

So I just realized I forgot to update about this situation. Thank you for your prayers. 🙏

I was going to try to be executor but things went sideways and I realized I couldn't handle that extra stress in my life. I was praying because I was a bit frustrated and confused about the path God wanted me to take and had even thought about cancelling the memorial service I had been planning. I had almost fully cancelled it when I decided that maybe it could still work out but I was still a bit frustrated because prior to my Grandma's funeral in 2020, God showed me speaking at her funeral and I was like "God, could you show me that I am supposed to go through with the memorial for my Dad? Why are you not providing me with confirmation?".

Anyways, as I was getting ready for the service and writing my Dad's eulogy, I had to deal with a lot of hurt and sadness and mixed emotions about how different people treated my Dad and were treating me because I was wanting to remember my Dad. It was a really stressful time for me.

About two days before the service, I had the image pop back into my head of when I felt God was showing me speaking at my Grandma's service. He had shown me this image after he told me I didn't have the right to question him on when he could choose to take his daughter (my grandma) home. But the image had never fit perfectly with my grandma's service. I was speaking, I was at the front of that church pictured and I was viewing that one of my Uncles was in attendance. I have a hard time looking up when I am speaking but at my Grandma's service, he wasn't seated to the left side but was in the center with family as it was his mom's service and family sits in the center (front two rows) section of that church for funerals. God let me know when he reshowed me that image that he did show me my Dad's service. This brought comfort to me and I know it was slightly ambiguous in the details because I know now I wouldn't have been able to handle knowing my Dad would be passing away 4 or plus years ago when God gave me the original dream.

So the day of the service came and I was getting ready. At the last minute, just before we were to start having family walk in, my aunt and uncle arrived. (They are usually late for things and my uncle is in poor health now, but they did come to the service). And to top it off, they sat exactly where God has showed me in the dream several years ago.

So the dream he gave me was a dual fulfillment. I not only shared the testament of my Grandma's legacy of faith at her service pre-covid, but to the other side of my family (and many who also attended my Grandma's service), I was able to share an entire service that was curated to speak about my Dad's faith and his desires for his family, friends and community to invite Christ into their lives. 🤯

I guess the most interesting thing I found about the whole experience was the partial fulfillment of the dream that has now been fully fulfilled. I have some other dreams that God had shown me that I have been awaiting fullfilment of and have noticed that some of those ones too have only been partially fullfiled. It has me greatful for the encouragement that he blessed me with through those dreams so that I can continue to look up and await his return. ♥️ Whether they will be fullfiled quite quickly or I am awaiting a bit more time, I know that he has made those puzzle pieces fit together and when they do fit, I will know it is the right fit.

I am thankful that God blessed me with the opportunity to be the one to speak at both of their services and that His name was glorified at both of those services. 😍