Feeling quite guilty and need to confess
May 13, 2020 21:45:13 GMT -6
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Post by Deleted on May 13, 2020 21:45:13 GMT -6
I do not know where to put this.
I feel terrible because I became soft on abortion.
I did not deny the atrocity of it. I simply began to regard it as a necessary evil.
I thought that it would prevent extreme abuse later on. I thought that 1st trimester death in utero was preferable to what happens on the outside. I used as my argument that we don't have the resources to meet all of these needs as a direct result of cut social programs. In AZ we have foster kids sleeping on the floors of "CPS" offices. I just kept saying this to myself until my reaction became dulled.
But I recently became unable to stomach some information that I couldn't escape. And now I am outraged and my heart physically hurts. I know that a big part of dulling my response was because I couldn't be loving to those who chose abortion, knowing all the facts. I had to find some reconciliation through "the greater good" perspective.
I'm glad I never voted for it. But I sure didn't continue the fight.
I'm trying to clean my spiritual house and it's been quite an experience. I have been worn down in more than a few areas.
I feel terrible because I became soft on abortion.
I did not deny the atrocity of it. I simply began to regard it as a necessary evil.
I thought that it would prevent extreme abuse later on. I thought that 1st trimester death in utero was preferable to what happens on the outside. I used as my argument that we don't have the resources to meet all of these needs as a direct result of cut social programs. In AZ we have foster kids sleeping on the floors of "CPS" offices. I just kept saying this to myself until my reaction became dulled.
But I recently became unable to stomach some information that I couldn't escape. And now I am outraged and my heart physically hurts. I know that a big part of dulling my response was because I couldn't be loving to those who chose abortion, knowing all the facts. I had to find some reconciliation through "the greater good" perspective.
I'm glad I never voted for it. But I sure didn't continue the fight.
I'm trying to clean my spiritual house and it's been quite an experience. I have been worn down in more than a few areas.
